COULD IT BE!?!? SNOW!?!?! AGAIN??????????????????????????????/



WHOOAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFYEAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SAINTS ALL THE WAY!!!

Ok I agree it was totally worth watching XDD we had some moments but it was totally worth it!



and I made digigrade legs while I watched XD
tho theyre not that great |D;

BUT FUCK YEAH! GEAUX SAINTS! 11-0!!!

I really wish I could find that new 'who dat' song that I think theyre playing now, its really catchy!

The Saint's game has me so anxious that Im not even sure if I can watch it! Now how sad is that??? I mean...really?

But none the less im in my own black and gold colors, as well as my whole family and everyone else around here. So at least I have my pride!

GEAUX SAINTS! BLACK AND GOLD!

Oh this is going to kill me tonight XD but Im watching it all alone ;;

seriously...

this actually happened

me: *at work doing something along the lines of texting ani working. When suddenly
dad calls!* hello?
dad: hey bud
me: hey dad
dad: so I just wanted to see if you were going to have a ride home from work if it starts
raining
me:umm..im sure I could ask someone..
dad: ok good cause we're all going to the Saint's game!
me: .____. ..all of you?
dad: mmyep
me: what about Alexis?
dad: oh I went and got her out of school
me:..... .___.; oh
dad: well I just assumed that you didnt want to go to the game since you never ask about it
and all, so you know you'll have the house to yourself tonight!
me:.... ._______.; umm yeah
dad: ok well then you have a good day at work, bye!
me:... ._____________________.;;; WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?!


now on the bright side of this, I get the whole house to myself tonight which means I can get some costume work done so that should be nice..

and while I dont think I would of gone to the game even if they had asked im still just surprised that they all went!

im kinda at a lost?

iiiiiiiits eeeeffffffffin cold today...LIKE WHOA.

COLD

WHAT IS THIS!?

I need a warmer coat ;;

cause you know how it goes, the moment I want to use the computer ITS MYSTERIOUSLY GONE!


..anyway

worked kicked my ass yesterday....and it kicked my ass pretty damn hard
it was crazy, not do the number of animals but the lack or organization and it just got overwhleming, ended up from opening to closeing. But hey its money right?


ow...my teeth hurt..

...I have like 50 things I should be doing

BUT I DONT KNOW WHICH ONE TO START ON!!! D8

and dont tell me the most important one cause theyre all kinda important in their own right.

Oh and this video documentaryry..ry...ry is alot harder to put together than I thought! I just want to make a cool video without haveing to make too many parts to it ;;

UUMMM...OK WHEN WAS ANYONE GONNA TELL ME THERE WAS A HURRICANE???

so umm im a little creeped out right now cause a little while ago during dinner my dad asks if any schools/work places were gonna be closed for the storm, which im pretty sure my job isnt (lol what?) so he informs me thats its just a small hurricane, catagory 1 no big deal all that..well this just happened!

me: ok dad im off to bed!
dad: ok sleep well
me: *walks off*
dad: WAIT COME BACK FOR A SECOND
me:..... *comes back* sir?
dad: if the weather starts to get bad tonight I want you to come inside
me: umm..ok
dad:..cause I know thats a nice cozy room out there but if one of the pine trees falls on it, youre pretty much...well..
me:..O____O;; *screwed?*
dad:..ok so yeah jsut to let you know
me:..O_____o;;;;;;;;; o-ok...

so while im not all too concerned I am a little nervous and umm..its a small 12x12 house...SURROUNDED BY TREES....THIN TREES....THIN..BREAKABLE TREES

....

.......


FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCK

ok off to bed!

ok..umm..well im really sorry bout that last post yall, it wasnt really right of me to do that and I know that I was overreacting and that was very out of line for me. But after about a day to think it over and figure some things out, im going to wait till tuesday before I make my decsion on this (its nothing life changeing I promise!)

So yeah we'll see how it goes!

if it aint one thing its another.

I have no idea what im doing, how im going to do this, and why I cant seem to do anything right.

Why did I think I could do this again?

this is what I get for not thinking first I suppose

whatever its nothing anyway

So...

Alot has happened..and nothing has happend at the same time..if that makes any sense. Sorta dont know how to feel atm...I feel fine I guess, just a little unsure and kinda hallow at the same time as well.

Its strange..

I feel as tho im stuck in my own world right now, I cant do much about it with work kinda consumeing all of my time and energy, but its like..as im doing that the world is still turning and things are happening while im caught up in my own stuff and by the time I have the chance to finally get things together its already too late. I dont even seem to have time to do things for myself..tho admittingly ive been spending alot of money..buying things for really no other reason than because I can (and of course not haveing bills is also really nice)

Well on the brighter side Freya Crescent is my next costume and im really really looking forward to making this costume! I have so many ideas and I wanna try out some new stuff and ah im just really anxious to get this done!


...well I mean if my sister doesnt break my sewing machine first *sweatdrop*

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAA!! YES OH GOD YESSSS!!!! WHO DAT BABY! BLACK AND GOLD NATION!!!!

WHO DAT GUNNA BEAT DEM SAINTS!?!?!

ok srsly like everyone in my house is freaking out XD

...and I have to get up for work in a couple of hours!

hmm..I have to admit that im sorta rethinking my options for this years fursuit...its still kinda up in the air with which one im gonna do, but really I have more drive to one costume than the other..but at the same time..I sorta did volunteer myself to join this group. But I dont even know if the other 2 are going to be doing it!

ARUGH! D8

I still need to think this over

it only figures that today would just suck in about every way possible. I kinda had a feeling that it would being the day before halloween and on a friday..just....fuck! damn it all!

So please God tell me what else can you do to piss me off today? Come on get it over with!

I just cant do anything right today..

I know that this really doesnt mean anything and of course this could be for various reasons, most likely me just being tired (staying up PAST 9???? OHGOD!)

I just feel sorta down. Maybe its cause the possibility of rain saturday (THATS A MEAN TRICK GOD >:( ) or it could just be my self loathing that I tend to have here an there, who doesnt? I mean I really shouldnt but its just like little things that can really build up or just rub me the wrong way, ya know? Or even just myself bringing myself down compareing myself to others. But you know in a weird way I almost feel like its kinda a good thing that I do that cause that way I never get on this high horse of being like 'lawl im so awsome and better than everyone else' so I guess you can say that it puts me in my place and shows me what I need to do to improve..or something like that?


I already know that any halloween stuff that im going to do is going to be late and while I know that there is no 'deadline' for art I guess I just feel kinda disapointed in myself for not getting it done, specially considering that I dont have school or anything like that, just work...then again I tell ya when I come home from work the time just slips away and then the next thing that I know its like past 9 and im fucking tired! (srsly my job takes alot out of me) And then up and going again the next day...

So I dont know?

I got my tails for October done and im really happy considering that I never sewed something that was 3 different colors and not to mention there was a design! OH GOD SAY IT AINT SO!...it was very simple but I still admire that I was able to make them. I'll have to post pictures but I cant tonight cause my sister wants the computer back and I would have to take the pictures, put them on my computer, put them on the flash drive, then come back inside and put them on her computer to put them on the internet--ahh its just this crazy thing and I dont have time right now


So yeah..I dont know..just a little down, happens to the best of us

*trots off*

NOOOOOOO!!!!! It cant rain saturday! It just cant!!! THE NEWS PAPER IS LYING TO ME (?)


Well I mean the paper said it was supposed to be clear saturday and weather.com says its supposed to rain on saturday!...WHO DO I BELIEVE!??


;; no...i cant rain..it'll ruin everything TT

...Ok...I am such a girl sometimes I swear...

I also realized today that I truely am my mother's daughter (as much as I try to deny it sometimes...). Basicly..I got my paycheck..and spent the hell out of it! I didnt mean to! I really didnt! I ment to buy catfood today and ended up buying about over $100 worth of stuff.....oh and the catfood

For some reason I am so excited over...shoes? Yes thats right..shoes..I also bought this sexy little dress at the halloween store (YES I GAVE IN AND BOUGHT IT EARLY!!!! DX I was gonna wait and buy it for my birthday but....damn it! I couldnt help it!) anyway....so I got this sexy little dress outfit- NOT FOR HALLOWEEN (at least not yet..) but actually for Akon's rave! I want to make a sexy rave Freya outfit and when I saw this dress I was like 'DO WANT'

http://www.legavenue.com/costumes/catalog/fairy-tales/1/1001
(doesnt actually come with the purple skirt but I will get that later..)

so I got that and I got these seeeexxxyyy boots too!....really for no reason actually I just thought that they were sexy and I wanted them! How sexy?...we're talking black leather, buckles, knee high, stiletto boots! I know theyre going to hurt like hell but damn it all they were soooo awsome..I bought them! And for some reason Im so excited! THATS THE WEIRD PART..IM ACTING LIKE A GIRL! HOOOOLY CRAP!...OH and I found a picture finally, turns out I was looking under the wrong company

http://www.shoebuy.com/funtasma-spicy-138/266304/566291
(course I got these a little cheaper at the store, but OOOMMMMG THEY ARE SEXY...and really pointy |D )

Oh and I got a flash drive! So now I can finally try and post some pictures SINCE I KNOW NOTHING OF THAT INTERNET YET but hey at least I have something so I can start posting pictures..

I also admit that in a way im a little dissapointed in myself for buying them...I mean..I have other priorities but for some reason they escape me when Im at the halloween store..or target...or best buy...or...anywhere *shifty eyes*

I also got my money back from my sister! huzzah!


and I got catfood...and dog treats (for my 'not dogs')



Freya gets really excited over these things |D;


in other news! Today was oddly enough very busy, which is very unlike a wednesday, and im tried as all hell of course! hmm.....umm....yep still waiting on my fur swatches to come in so that I can look into buying the rest and make my new tails! Really hope I can get a dentist appointment soon..my teeth hurt really badly and I keep taking meds like candy so much that I have a good feeling my liver will be dead by my birthday...not cool man..


weeeeeee~

...Lani passed away today..not too long ago actually...

It was sudden and yet expected at the same time. I had been told that she hadnt been acting like herself, not eating, and hardly moving...Both Jess and I sorta saw this comming, the signs were clear... but...its never easy to say good bye to someone that you love

Jess was an amazing owner to Lani, and like Amaya was to me, Lani was pretty much her baby. She always made sure that she got the love and attention that she needed, fed her well (maybe a little too well sometimes!) and always made sure that she had what she needed. Lani wasnt just a rat, she was a member of the family, and deserves the love and respect as any one else does. Lani loved Amaya as well and at least now they can be together. She was also a clever little thing, always tending to find new places to hid and then scare me half to death when I couldnt find her.

If it wasnt for Lani I would of never gotten Amaya and then would of never known the joys of having a pet rat. She lived a good, long life, getting to go many places and see many things. And of course she had Jess to thank for a wonderful life. Even when I had taken Lani for a bit due to apartment issues Jess still made sure that she was well cared for, buying her loads of treats, toys, food and anything else that whated to make sure both Lani and Amaya could be happy.

You are an amazing person Jess, a careing friend and a loving owner. You did the best that you could for her and stayed with her till the very end. Lani will never be forgotten, and we will miss her terribly. She knew that she was loved and she always will be.

And now she can be with Amaya, and they can be together again

Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side, no more tears to cry

GOD. FINALLY.

its finally October first! I wish I could enjoy it more but im too tired and im in too much pain :<

I found out this morning that I have little to no depth perception at about 5 in the morning due to the fact that I did this magical task, for when I opened the door to my bathroom I ended up slamming my face into the dresser...how I did this im not quite sure! I think I over shot the door..or something..either way it didnt bruise but its sore

Im so excited for halloween this year. Im gonna totally pimp out my yard! I even have skelton lawn flamingos!

yeah..you heard me

aaaannyway.....


so yeah. I want to remake my fox tails for my October costume, so im going with something a little different and im thinking about finally adding some color to this poor girl! So her tails instead of being just white are gonna be black, orange, and white...mostly white tho. Im trying to figure out how much fur im going to need to make them about ankle length and so far I know the tips are going to be orange and there's going to be some (simple) black design while the rest is white....sorry just rambleing to myself here..so anyway im thinking like maybe....3 yards total? maybe 2 for the white? Idk

weeeeeeee...


faaaaace hurt T___T

Jealousy really is an ugly thing *low growl* I just cant be happy for others


in other news I never realized how fucked up my family became since I left, until I moved back! (see if that one makes sense!)